昨天，在电视剧《玫瑰故事》剧组发布的首发剧照中，发现了我的作品《莫莉花色》No.1 。尺寸为50x60cm，油画，早期作品。与之相关的，还有衣服一幅尺寸为120x100cm的《莫莉花色和花儿》，是2022年底的作品。此作品，也在剧组，还未还回来。一周前送还回23幅作品。

Yesterday, in the release of the first promotional stills of the "The tale of rose" TV drama crew, my artwork "Moli's Fantasy No.1" was discovered.  It is a 50x60cm oil painting, an early work of mine. Related to that, there is also my artwork "Moli's Fantasy and Flowers" on a 120x100cm canvas, created at the end of 2022.  This artwork is also with the drama crew and has not been returned to me yet. Some already back, about 23.

芍药：离草多情，难舍难分。牡丹：仪态万千，雍容华贵，富有生命力，象征爱情，充满期待和浓情蜜意。毛良茛，花毛良，也叫西洋牡丹。叶子不似芍药，像芹菜。一枝上花苞也多，花很像芍药，易折。花瓣滑滑的，有透明感。

Paeonies are full of affection, reluctant to be separated from each other. Peonies: Beautiful and graceful, full of vitality and love, filled with expectation and passion. Ranunculus asiaticus，commonly known as Persian buttercup or Asiatic ranunculus. Its leaves are not like peony, but more like celery. There are many flower buds on each stem, and the flowers look similar to peonies but are fragile and easily broken. The petals are smooth and have a translucent quality.

放着最好吃的妈妈菜不吃，出去吃大油腻的，在我这样的减肥期，是很不愿意的。况且，大厨在呀。显露身手她愿意，今儿要赏我们鲍鱼烧肉和糖醋鲈鱼。

看看晚点画下来，收录到《家常便饭》里，写清做法去。

It's hard to leave behind my mother's delicious cooking and go out to eat greasy food, especially during my weight loss period. Besides, we have a great chef at home.

She would love to show her skills and today she treated us to abalones and pork belly and sweet and sour sea bass.

I'll draw it later and include the recipe in my book "Moli's Foodie Diary".

窗外柳絮漫天，

窗内浮想联翩。

听《妆台秋思》，

想起一个人呢，一件长远的往事。

Outside the window,

willow catkins are flying in the air, Inside the window,

thoughts are floating and wandering.

Listening to "Zhuang Tai Qiu Si",

I think of someone and a distant past....

邻居老太家种了一株五色梅，也叫马樱丹，好看得不得了，看见我一人一狗在她家院子前转悠，就给我采了一把，拿回家画。我感觉老太递给我一把花的时候，有一瞬间感觉自己是一个饿的要命的叫花子，对方给了一个馒头。My neighbor's old lady has planted a five-colored plum blossom tree, also known as Lantana camara L..  It looks absolutely beautiful.  When she saw me and my dog walking around in front of her yard, she picked a branch for me and gave it to me to take home and paint.

用秋天的画，留住春天的花，记下每一个生命的绽放，这是另一种形式的“葬花”。不是眼泪和忧伤，是发现生命的力量。

生命的力量，是她们绽放的过程。一点点看在眼里的。凋零的忧伤，不是她生命的重点。

愉悦，是在一段关系里的快感。

Pleasant, it comes from the enjoyment of a relationship.

人与宇宙，人与自然，人与人。

Humanity and the universe, humanity and nature, humanity and other humans.

初看虞美人，很美，却很脆弱，经不得折腾，插瓶也是首次，不一会儿都散落在桌面，看着让人心疼。乘着花瓣还没有干透，画下来，也算祭奠她短暂美丽的一生。恰不知，花园里还有很多虞美人含苞待放，等待怒放，等待散落，成为花泥，生生不息，前仆后继。

Yellow rice wine enters into the liver meridian, invigorating the mind and tonifying kidney qi. Before, I almost quit drinking as it impacted my practice and work. In the future, I can still get some good yellow rice wine, relaxing my mind and body in moderation.

我的写作方式，有些读者朋友给我说过，像这个谁谁的日记体，那个什么什么的，我也忘记了，也没看过，不谈。作家寒川子觉得我三观正，文字朴实幽默。他希望我能写写中西文化差异的东西。而老师包林也希望我写写绘画相关。

If the health as it is capital, the first thought when I get up early at this very early morning, is whether I go to the lake for two laps?! Then I did 2000 rope skipping, before drink my first cup of black coffee, and start my age 42. I am very satisfied with growing up like right now it was. Just a bit rounder than ten years ago~ Hehehehe~ There is not one more wrinkle...

我对创作创造纯洁和纯碎的保护，使了强硬的手段。大多是努力不被社会和他人的光芒指错了方向。时刻提醒自己要记得创造源起的愉悦和理想。这并不是什么高尚圣洁的举动，我跟那两个玩意靠不上边。

正因对外面的世界有憧憬，对春天、杏花、桃花、海棠，有期待。这些天，我都在画风景，纸本和油画。我要把美好的东西通通装到自己的心里、家里。我还设计好，今年后院的样子，如何写生、喝茶、画画。

The knowledge differences in reality ... An attempt to purposefully persuade the viewers... When I write an article or paint my artworks, THERE is no attempt to persuade the viewers. I think people are easy to be purposeful. It's our mindset. Maybe the older you gets, the more purposeful it becomes. That was socially trained, whether by accident or designed.

每天都在减肥，从未减重过，但不影响每天要减肥的愿景。Felt fat every morning in mirror. Trying everyday to losing my weight but actually I never lost my weight! I cook so well! lalalalalalalallalalala~ yes I do have strong body. 

I watched a sci-fi romance movie and felt that I believed in love very much. Fall in love is not a necessary require for now. But it does not prevent me to  believing in love.Sci-fi romance movies make me believe even more. Disasters, the sense of the future, all kinds of obstacles.If without that much difficult events. There is not much left about love. And everybody is stiil divorced. I mean movies.

巴勃罗·毕加索的 《西班牙侏儒舞女》（西班牙舞者），这是一幅迄今为止，还没有对外出版和发表的毕加索作品和文字。我在学习和研究的过程中，得到法国现任藏家本人的允许作分享：

Pablo Picasso, Dwarf dancer：This is a Picasso's artwork and article that has not been published or released to the public until now. In the process of studying and researching, I have obtained permission from the current French collector to share it.

真香，玫瑰真香。 园中花正红，我剪了好多枝，树上仍有好多。 前后院大片大片的蔷薇也要开了，养了第五年，已经爬满了墙。 我该有十来种玫瑰品味。  

玫瑰的画作也不少，这里应该是部分。  

容我慢慢地讲述玫瑰故事好了。

It smells so good, the roses smell so good.I've cut so many branches, but there are still so many on the trees.  And the wild roses are about to bloom too. This European roses should be called 'Johnson', it doesn't climb much, but it looks great in a ultramarine vase.

I think I have about ten different types of roses in my garden.  

There are also many paintings of roses.  Here is just a part of it.

去年也是五四，芍药开了两朵，被我摘下，画了一幅画。今年芍药开了有四朵。今晨下雨了，我在小雨中剪下三朵来，配着粉蔷薇插于瓷瓶中，一会儿画下来。芍药(Paeonia lactiflora Pall.)，根茎丛生。今年又多买了几块根，都冒出来了，有的还开了花。

Last year on May 4th, two Paeonies bloomed and I picked them to paint. This year, four Paeonies bloomed. It rained this morning, so I cut three of them in the drizzle and put them in a porcelain vase with pink roses. Paeony (Paeonia lactiflora Pall.) grows in clusters. I bought a few more roots this year, and they all sprouted and some even bloomed.

不是不选择，而是没得选。无趣极了，无趣极了。那长着感官的硬件，生锈了，迟钝了，没有心和灵……脑子里都装了什么呢？！

​Not that there's no choice, but there's no other option. It's so boring, painfully dull. The human hardware with senses has rusted, dulled, devoid of spirit and soul... What's on your mind?! 

花儿从盛开到枯萎，这是一种过程，生命的过程。生命不光是生，还有死。虽说，最终都逃不过一死吧。可为何要这么无意义、无踪影、无情绪地死去呢？！这几朵花占了我十来天的时光，我占了它们一生。

Flowers go from blooming to withering, this is a process, the process of life. Life is not just about being alive, but also about death. Although, in the end, we can't escape death. But why do we have to die so meaninglessly, without a trace, without emotions?! These few flowers have taken up ten days of my time, while I have taken up their entire lifespan.

昨日，跟骑士说创作和思路，他跟我说，“十年磨一剑，一旦拔剑，天下就是你的！”得到天下？我可不要。能站住脚跟，有一片呼吸自由的天地即可。每一种生命都有各自绽放的方式和美丽。我并不需要处处找寻存在感。

Yesterday, I talked about my art and ideas with the Qiu Guang Ping and he said to me, "It takes ten years to sharpen a sword. Once you draw your sword, the world will be yours!" To conquer the world? That's not what I want. I just want to stand firm and have a space where I can breathe freely. Every life has its own way of blooming and its own beauty. I don't need to constantly seek validation in everything.

原先写日记，都是用电脑、手机。现在每天或经常手写，这习惯很好，会安静下来。写字有写字的独到体验，另一种思考方式……、

直面内心的分析与记录。

自省、审视、归纳、确认……

去年为了一张百鸟图，我花了大半个月时间作手绘。鸟儿太自由太美了，我爱它们美丽美好，也是为了认识它们。

Last year, I spent half of a month drawing the Figure birds. Birds are so free and beautiful, I love them, but also wish to know them.

The  apricot blossom at 2022. It was my best friend for last 4 springs. 

🔗：禁闭的春天 杏花一枝墙头来 The apricot blossom is in full bloom

🔗：莫莉的世界：杏子糖水 Apricot soup

Don’t you working about me being single.

I have multidimensional world inside my head.

多维世界在脑中，怎么可能会寂寞？

天上的星星像珠宝，钻石又放回了抽屉里。

多想知道开普勒22B星球是什么样子，有没有生命？

但是动手是必然呀。好的想法、心思是占比5%吧。平时也要有积累。大家不是什么天才或者火药什么的，一碰即爆。执行占比90%。还有5%是运气。只不过做了前面的95%，运气迟早会来的。

老天有成人之美嘛，运气（Lucky）它一看你：“卧槽，95%都完成了，我随便来点力这就成了，运气我多省事儿啊！”

老头今年70了，在家里都要戴个礼帽。老头不像70岁，年轻力壮的感觉。他来我这里，本是管理花园的，做些他原本擅长的书法抄写，替我抄书，做些个木工装置，每月包吃住买东西还有工资。结果一个字没写...

There will be misunderstanding while there is understanding. This could be self-demand. You can be a tolerant person in life. But just one thing, it is easy to make this mistake in the professional life...

这就是昨天的鱼片锅了。在妈妈的基础上，改编创作一下。比较成功。我是大年夜那天做好了用羊绒毯包好了去吕新家的。年夜饭很丰富。我介绍了一下我的菜：高汤是什么样的，黑松露一颗红参5片，黄芪2小片，当归1片（多了串味串爆）。老黄尝了大贝柱，说肉劲道好吃，我也喜欢吃。介绍鱼片、鱼块、羊杂，乃至青笋怎么处理、新鲜青花椒的来历，等我再找贝柱时...

可能见过的鬼怪多了些，便特别想发现人间的美好。换句话说，发现美好（又或是呈现美好），也是一种反抗。Perhaps I've seen too much ghosts, and I desire to discover the beauty of the world. In other words, finding beauty (or presenting it) is a form of resistance.

This is last year's first batch of roses, between spring and summer. And the roses,zinnia flowers at  deep autumn, or winter beginning. I put spring, summer, autumn and winter in one space.

Last year, this year, the year after...

Past, present, future...